SuRpRiSe

I am so bad at keeping my blog up to dat.. I apologize. Well, Alex and I had a surprise on last saturday.. I found out I am pregnant with #2!! It was a shock for the both of us but we are very happy! My due date will be August 27th. Not the fun-nest time to be pregnant during summer.

Things are going pretty good. I am still in school, and loving it.. I go to school on monday and wednesday nights and Breanna stays home with alex. Next Term I will be taking 3 or 4 classes so I will probably be going to school every night.. My term is almost over! I can't believe how fast it is going by.. I am going to miss it. It has help me so much feeling like I am doing something and accomplishing things. I graduate in July sometime. My teachers are all so awesome and teach in away that you understand. It's not a stressful place..

Alex is doing pretty good, still trying to find a job.. It isn't easy finding one right now.. He has been helping one of his sisters lately and has been enjoying it.. Something to keep him busy. HIm and Breanna really have clicked lately.. She loves her daddy and gets so sad when he isn't home. She asks where he is all the time. And he adores her right back.. He gets so happy to come home and hug her.. He really is such an amazing dad.. I am so glad that they are close now..

OH Breanna.. where do I start. That child is a feisty one. She really has started to develop this attitude.. If she doesn't get what she wants she screams and yells at you until you listen or get.. Which never happens lol.. She says no all the time and when she gets in trouble she says WHAT? or WHY? She has started to hit when you tell her no.. she is pretty sassy. She is a smart little girl and understands pretty much everything.. For the most part she is an easy baby, she goes to bed at 7:30 p.m. she hardly ever cry when you put her to bed. She just says nigh nigh and blows kisses. She loves giving hugs and cuddling with her daddy. She loves Baby dolls and carries hers around every where. she loves laughing. She really is a happy baby.. She has brought so much joy and light in our lives. I can't imagine life without her. She amazes me every day. I don't want her to grow up.. I want to be able to give her everything.I want her to know her parents love her no matter what and that they are always there for her. She truly is a gift.

Well, here are some pictures of breanna from a few months ago. Alex's sister Lindsey took them. I think think they are amazing and she really captured Breanna's personality.

Love you all!!! Hope everyone had a merry christmas! I'll put up christmas picture's soon.. Promise!

This makes me laugh!

Classic Breanna face!

Outside, Breanna

The other day we went and played outside for a few. Breanna decided that a diaper and cowboy boots was very appropriate for this. She really has a obsession with shoes, even if they don't fit her. She really has been such a blessing in my life. She amazes me everyday. She is a VERY smart girl, and so good. I Miss her like crazy when i have come home from being gone somewhere. She is my joy and light, everything i do, i do because of her.

Breanna is now 20 months. She loves baby dolls, she loves watching movies, specially disney ones. She loves dancing and singing. If she get in trouble she looks at me and say " what mommies! " She calls Alex "Ale." She can say see ya, bye, mommies,babies,this,eyes,no no, and one of her favorites "uh uh" She LOVES being outside. she likes to go out and see the cows and chickens. Yes we have cows. We have about 5 calfs, and a momma cow. She is a big helper, she likes to help clean up. She always likes to bite and hit the other kids and scream at them if they touch her. She like doing things on her own, Very Independent. Her our some of our pictures from the other day!

BooBoo Bear

So I know these are kinda older pictures but i thought it was better than nothing.. I will get recent ones up soon I promise!!!

Nothing like A cute bundled up baby!

I Love Swinging

I was 13 Months here

FaMiLy PiCtUrE

Back in June Alex's family all go together and we took our big family picture and then we all got our own family pictures. It was way fun to see everyone all together!

Life as you know it

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW.....
I have been awful about keeping this updated. Life has been very crazy the last 5 months. For those that do not know. Nate and I are divorce. Alex and I have gotten back together. I can only imagine what is going through some of your heads. I really had a hard time with this decision just because I didn't want to hurt anyone, but I wanted my family. It wasn't fair to Nate, and I wasn't happy. I feel so awful more than people think or know for how i went about things, let alone getting married. I should have listen to my heart. But I felt so lost and vulnerable, that i looked to everyone else for the answers. I Felt so lost and confused. And when I decided to follow my heart it felt so good but at the same time the hardest thing. I have lost a lot of friends and don't have a lot of family to talk to. A lot of people of talked about me and disagree with things. And that's OK. People are allowed to have their own opinions.I want people to know that i was never upset with how they felt about me getting back with Alex, it was more of how they said things. People telling me i am stupid or if I go out and have a few drinks all of a sudden I am not thinking about my daughter. That hurt because everything I do is for my daughter. She is the center or all my decisions and choices and I would give my life for her.
I have started going back to church again, and this time it is so different. It doesn't feel like a chore it is something that I really want. I see my life change. I am more at peace and calm with myself. I started reading my scriptures and haven't missed a day in the last two weeks. It really does make a difference. I'm gaining so much faith. I am learning to have faith in the lord, that he will help me and never leave my side. I have felt his help and he has answered so many prayers. I have to thank Alex's family.. They have been amazing and have taught me so much about faith and hope strength and courage. They are one of the most amazing families I have ever met. They truly care about people and each other. They are always there to help anyone in need and know hot to pull together in time of need. I finally found my place. I belong some where. I have everything I need thanks to them. I fill forever be grateful for Linda and Dawayne and the love and selfless acts. I am so grateful for Alex's sisters. It's like have 8 older sisters. They are the funniest girls to be around and I can be my self and actually talk deep with them.

I'm finding that life is full of curve balls, and up and downs. It throws so many different things at you some not always easy. I'm finding that you have to take what is even to you and make the best of it, see the good in everything, find what makes you happy and run with it. I'm really starting to be grateful for my hard times, I wouldn't be who I am today if i didn't have them. Threw the hard times you find strength and courage, you grow a little more you find that it gives you hope when you fall again that you can get back up and fight.I am truly grateful for my life, for every breath I take, for every moment I have with my beautiful daughter,For every laugh,for every tear,for every hug and kiss, for every smile.I am finally seeing things clearer. Life really is amazing, we need to cherish every moment with those that we love.I am FAR from perfect but I try to be a better mother, friend,sister,daughter, and girlfriend everyday. I have learned so much but still have so much more to learn and discover. Life is like a journey,you really never know were it will take you.

Well enough of that. lol... I will update a little on my cute little family. Breanna is now 19 months. She is go go go ALL the time. She doesn't stop. She gets into EVERYTHING,She wants to know how everything works. She is a very smart little girl. She understands everything you tell her, when she is in trouble she acts like she doesn't know anything. If you get after her for something she says "Why?" or "What?" she ignores you when you say no or just laughs at you. Ha-ha she keeps me laughing. Lets see oh she loves dum-dums. She can say mom ( and says it all the time.) bye bye,see ya, baba,dad,hi,thank-you,oh and when she wants something she says 'this!" She gives high fives and stones. She LOVES to give hugs, and laughs at her self all the time. She loves reading books and coloring. I can't imagine life without her. She keeps me going. I look at her and I am amazed. She is growing so fast. I love her more than she can ever imagine.

Lets see Alex is doing good. He took his GED test a week ago and got a 98 in math, 100 in social studies and a 100 in reading. I think his over all score was 715. which is awesome for someone who didn't study before taking it and has been out of school for almost 7 years. Seriously the guy is so smart.. I was so proud of him. He finally got done with all his court hirings and is very glad. He just has a lot of classes to take and is on probation for 36 months which more than likely end up being 18 months.. It will be nice when it is all done and over with. He really has been a good sport about it all and has done what he has needed to. I love him dearly and am very grateful to have my family back!

Well this a pretty long and prolly pretty boring blog. I will post pictures I promise!

Easter Weekend

Breanna being a bulley to Graice Lou

Graice and Breanna

Caden and Banana

Besties like their mommas

Sunday My friend Carrie and her two kids came over. Her daughter is 5 days older than Breanna.. Breanna was actuall born the day her daughter was suppose to be born.. The two girls had fun together.. They kept us all laughing.. Breanna Loved her!

More Pictures

Ap Tour Concert

Some of Jessica and I's favorite bands were playing 3oh!3, A Rocket To The Moon, The Maine, Family Force 5, and Hit the Lights.. A Rocket To The Moon is one of Jessica and I's favorite band we got to meet The lead singer.. It was awesome we even got a pic with him.. We had a lot of fun. Jessica, kalia, and I were in the mash pits, We got bruises all over. we got kicked and stepped on.. But it was so fun!

Jessi and I.. Can't tell we are sisters lol

A Rocket To The Moon

Kalia ( Jessi's friend), Jessi, Nick( Lead singer) And I

Me, Kalia, Jessi

New Pictures

Sorry I am so bad about keeping this updated but here are some updated pictures of My B.. She is getting so big.. I can't believe she is almost 1 1/2.. Where does time go? Two more months and then she can go to nursery! I am very excited about that. No more chasing her around and no more of her knocking old ladies down. She amazes me everyday with the things she does... She is just so much fun.. her knew thing right now is blowing kisses to everything and sometimes nothing.. She hugs her food and sippy cup and toys and books.. She say uh oh now.. well it is more like uh uh. She laughs at her self.. she thinks she is very funny. I love the age she is at.. i can put a movie on and she will watch so i can get things done.. She loves Elmo and Care Bears.. Her new favorite is Robin Hood. She loves being outside just walking around. She has been such a joy and Blessing.. She does have a bad side.. If you tell her no or get upset with her, she hits you in the face or bites you or yells.. She gets mad if she doesn't get what she wants when she wants it.. I'm not gunna lie i am tried of that. ha-ha.. The throwing fits is not an easy stage and I know it will only get worse.. She doesn't listen.. Most of the time she just laughs when she is in trouble. I don't know what to do.. But then there are the moments she crawls up in my lap and cuddles and I thank god for her.

I finally have her on a a schedule.. She eats dinner, bath any where between 7 and 7:30 and then milk, story and in bed no later than 8:30!!! I can just tell you how nice it is!! So much better than this 11 or 12 bedtime. Breanna is such a happy Baby.. she is always smiling laughing..

But My Best friend Carrie helps me through it. She has been a blessing in my life. I love her. She always helps me through things. She gave me hope and courage and strength! She is my lucky star! She is so blunt with me and always lookin out. She cares so much about other people is always there to help someone and put aside what she is going through.I swear her and I were sisters in another life. Actually i take that back TWINS in another life. ha- ha She has giving me hope. She is the best friend that I have always prayed for but never could find and now I did. She is a constent reminder that I'm doing just what I should be. I found so much strength through her when everything happened with alex and I. I really look up to her and admire her strength and courage.She is an amazing mom. the kind of mom I want to be. she has been through a lot. but always has a smile on her face. I couldn't ask for a better Best friend! I just love her to pieces. It's nice to have that best friend that you know isn't going any where and that you will always keep in touch.. Oh I don't know what I would do without her.. God must love me to send me such a wonderful amazing talent husband, an awesome amazing best friend.. She is the kind of friend everyone should have! I pray that I can be that same friend to her in return!

I am trying to think of what else is new. Everything is going good. I love and miss you all! hope to see you all soon. I talk about you girls all the time.. Ami give Ryder hugs and loves from Auntie Misty and Charis give Chloe hugs and loves from Auntie Misty.. I want our kids to sty in touch and be close.. I love you girls more than you will ever ever know.. You are my sisters and always will be!!!

She loves her Care

The water in the basement when the house flooded

She is crazy sleeper

The many ways she sleeps.

ChRiStMaS

Pictures

Here are some more pictures we took over christmas

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